I’ve been having trouble sleeping lately. Not falling asleep, but staying that way. 35 weeks into pregnancy means I’m up at least twice each night to use the bathroom, and getting comfortable enough to drift back off is becoming impossible. So I find myself lying awake, thinking. Sometimes these nocturnal thoughts are simple musings on day-to-day tasks, the kinds of things all moms think about: did I pack Atticus’s homework folder for tomorrow? Will I have time for a quick load of laundry between work and speech therapy? Did I turn in the signed permission slip? But then those thoughts take on a more significant theme: when did I become such an…adult? Legally, it’s been a while. But I’ve felt relatively young until the past year or so. And now, not so much. So then I find myself comparing my current circumstances to those of, say, 10 years ago, 15. Was I that different then than I am today? In many ways, yes. But what has made the past decade slip away so suddenly? In large part, I think it’s been the constant presence of the person dearest to me, the person who makes the mundane more exciting and the exciting all the more fun. Sharing all the moments of my adult life with this one person makes it all feel like one shared experience, like nothing has changed in our lives, even though so much has.
|we were just BABIES!|
When we made it back from that trip, it was pretty clear that Brian and I were well-suited. What would have been a disaster for most couples or an excuse to argue and nitpick in a less-than-perfect pairing was actually a comical love story for us. So much so, in fact, that the experience showed up in each of our wedding vows to one another. There’s nothing more romantic than Walmart parking lots, I suppose.
I’ve been thinking a lot about those early days with Brian lately and I can’t quite figure out why. It’s an experience that seems simultaneously like yesterday and a lifetime ago. Perhaps it’s because we’re about to give birth to our third child after 12 years as a couple. Or maybe it’s because those circumstances of our early relationship have changed so drastically over the years. If you had told me then that I’d be where I am now, I wouldn't have believed you. I wouldn’t have believed it could be both so easy and so busy at the same time. Brian and I are incredibly happy together, and despite the chaos of our current lives, we can always count on each other to be the constant. We will always have each other and even on the rare occasion when we disagree, we’re on the same page when it comes to raising babies and hell. Today marks our 7th wedding anniversary, and I’m honored to call this man my husband, the father of my children, and my very best friend.